Emotionally insane!

Over n over, and I am sure over again,

I am rarely accustomed to this bargain!

In this heart-ache – heart break land,

I end up with burning my own hand.

Echoes in my mind don’t let me forget

Of my insane dreams I used to have once!

Past keeps flashing memories of the sweet pain

Reminding Me of my efforts which went in vain.

For peace I look towards The Home

But realization of this world has left me Alone!

Truly, madly, deeply in love with this feeling inside me

It’s pain which makes me emotionally insane…

Victim of your Eye

 Right from the beginning I was the only suspect,

To all my miseries and set-backs.

My love, respect and emotions to you,

Has just ended up like a one way track!!!

Whenever I introspect and sit with alter-ego

I get mixed feelings of vengeance and cry.

A little ray of hope, from the window of my heart

Still keep asking my mind the very question, ‘Why?’

As a matter of fact, I am not a planet

Which keeps on revolving in an orbit,

So let me tell you, I have got guts and dare in my thoughts

So for others, you can’t keep me on edge and aside.

It’s been too long, we know each other and talked eye-to-eye

Without any concern from you, I have walked many a miles

At the end when I look back down, it’s even hard to say good-bye

Cause I found myself as just another victim of your, Eyes!

Perception

I don't have energy to fight any more,
I now surrender to THEE my mind and soul.

I am pissed off reading 'between the Lines',
And keep on ignoring the literal meanings and signs.

For all that had happened and is going to be,
I consider myself as the only menace.

With last loud shout, I wanna tell those Stars,
It's not a defeat, just a new Start.

Perception: Gluttony > Greed > Desire > Passion > Capability > Need > Basic > Hope.

While, Alone...

while I wish, I could be left alone for sometime,
but Somebody always keep creeping into my Mind.

while I could handle the "World", with my fictitious smile,
but I know Somebody down there is under a dangerous pile.

while I walk the roads, with some so-called, 'Feelings' holding my hands tight
but They always keep freaking me out in the nights.

Tea, Alcohol, Weeds have lost their effects on memories now
Affected by time, even a clean water give me an awe.

Time, Shall I

As they say, its miles to go before you sleep,

I keep on wandering, shall I go with the wind or by my own speed…

So many things to know & explore,

Shall I take the known path or follow my heart…

Surrender my will and ideas to those losers or so called achievers (Boss),

Or Shall I make my own choices or just keep believing in what I got…

Getting used to the strangers & routine of clock,

Or shall I once again stand up & take my own walk…

Others believe & feel that, I achieved what I thought,

Or shall I once again stand up & strike a little hard…

Time has decided & will decide the rest,

Or shall I bother, what’s deep down in my mind…

Sirf "Tum"

tum hote to har sama, har ek najara suhana hota...
jag mein koi hota, jo sirf humara hota.

hasta, rulata, jhoothi batein banata...
humari ek muskaan k liye, sare nakhre uthata.

kabhi jo ruth jate, to ghanto manata...
na mana pate, to khud ruth jata.

ho shaam ka andhera, ya ugte suraj ka ujaala...
humara woh koi, sirf humara hi hota.

ye mujh se poochta karti hai...

abb raat sapno mein aa k woh,
ye mujjh se poocha karti hai...
kya yaad tumhe mein atti hu,
tasveer kiski hai abb in ankhon mein.

mein khud ko vishwaas dilata hu,
whem hai ye, jajbaat nahi...
ehsaas ki najuuk pari hai woh,
jiss ki godd mein so jata hu...

abb raat sapno mein aa k woh,
ye mujjh se poocha karti hai...

oss ki boondon ko dekh k lagta hai,
roye honge hum jaise sapno mein, kai...
kisii ko whem na ho jaye kahin,
nishaan chod diye honge tabhi...

kaise kahein, ki bhule nahi,
yaad abb bhi tum humko atti ho...
aee swapn desh ki sehjadi,
hakikat mein to aa k mil jao kabhi...